I don't think i'm going to make it.........

I don't think I'm going to make it........ That's what I say to myself everyday as I embark on this journey. What's the journey you might ask?? On August 19th, I made a decision to push myself to the limit in a way I never have in my life up to this point. I made the the choice to workout and eat perfect (designed meal plan) for 100 days straight.

"The Proust Effect" or "involuntary memory," a term coined by 20th century writer Marcel Proust, explains the curious phenomenon of a memory triggered by smell, taste, or even a sound. The sound I heard and felt on August 19th 2023, was one that shot me back 10 years prior to a place where my life started again. 

After sitting in a jail cell for 6 months and being acquitted of most accusations that had been made against me as a college student, I began the journey of  starting anew, something we all experience in some phase of our life in one way or another.

As a student athlete, I was blessed because of my God given academic and athletic abilities. Because of this I was afforded the opportunity to continue my schooling at a new school, Alcorn State University. I chose this esteemed school because its where God led me, but I would need to get ready. As I sat for those 6 months, without any type of training regiment or routine, my body withered away. I was a shell of my old self. But I knew it would be okay because if there was one thing I was good at, it was self motivation and determination to achieve a goal. I weighed about 200lbs now down from 240lbs ,and I felt weaker (physically) than I could remember in my life.

So I got to work......

4-5 times a week, twice a day most days, for the next 100 ish days you could find me in the gym working out, focused and driven to get to my goal. But I don't think I had a goal. What I had was a "state of being "that I wanted to obtain and that was to be in the best shape in my life and overly prepared for the 2013 college football season. 

I cried because it brought me back.......

On Aug 19th, 2023 while bench pressing in Peak City Athletics' gym tears ran down my face, The Proust Effect. I was shot back to 2013 like a time machine while performing a bench press and feeling the weakest I could remember. That first workout in 2013 after those long 6 months is something I will never forget and on this day I was right back there vulnerable and weak and now another chance to "go to work."

Today is day 30 out of 100  (have currently worked out 36 times) and I don't know if I'm going to make it..... 

Here are my rules to these 100 days:

Workout everyday, sometimes twice. (workouts always consist of lifting weights and running, no body weight only workouts).

Perfect eating. (a designed meal plan that will lean my body out, while also allowing me to build muscle)

No alcohol... (the hardest of them all, no need to explain)

I don't know the next time I'll check in with you or if I'll check in again at all. I don't know if this is to motivate, scare, or entertain you. I'm not stopping though.

​Oh...(here's a progress pic).. And don't worry I'm working on my legs more than my upper body.. Peak City gym members know lol. We'll have to show those off in the future....maybe